It’s my “blogaversary”!
It was one year ago today that I got “that call” and started this blog. I can’t believe it’s been a year already. And I’m still here kickin’ it!
I remember that phone call still. I was standing in the living room looking out the window. I was hoping for some kind of liver disease. I really didn’t think it was cancer.
Once he dropped the C-bomb I couldn’t think straight. It was like my brain severed from my body. I remember still staring out the window listening to his voice start to sound like the adults on Peanuts specials.
He said he thought it was likely gastro-intestinal and that they would “just give me some chemo, maybe take it out and no problem. Nothing to worry about.” NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT? Knowing what I know now I so would’ve lost it on the guy. I didn’t fully understand metastatic cancer at the time. And now that I do, I know that any cancer that has spread to the liver is stage IV. Nothing to worry about? There is no stage V!
I guess in hindsight it was probably good that way. Reading back at that first blog post I really wasn’t all that panicked. Shocked? Yes. But I at least had time for the whole stage IV thing to sink in.
It was weird having to call MJ. I didn’t want to tell her over the phone but I couldn’t wait either. I had to tell her right away. I’m pretty sure I cried but I don’t remember.
So now here we are a year later. It seems like yesterday some days and a million years ago on others. Today it feels like yesterday.
I’m happy with my year. I’m happy with the progress.
And look! I have hair!
Thank you all for your support this last year. I don’t have the words to express how much it all means to me. Thank you for the jokes, the funny pictures and videos, the warrior poses and the love.
I love you all and I’m gonna go and kick some more ass now.