I do! I do!
Saw the oncologist this morning and all the news was very promising.
He said that the tumors in my liver are shrinking. He didn’t give exact numbers but said it was considerable. My liver itself was enlarged and was 25cm. It is now going back to it’s normal size and is now 19cm. The lymph nodes in the area that were enlarged have shrunk to normal size. No other evidence of disease has shown up. Lungs and everything else is clear and my blood work is going back to normal.
We will now do two more months of chemo and I’ll have another progress scan after that. He thinks that if I continue in this direction that I will go onto a maintenance program after that. I’m not sure of all the details but it’s basically less chemo.
He had mentioned radiation that last time we were in. Today he said based on the scans and talking with the radiation therapists, they don’t feel it’s necessary for me to do at this time. Too many risks and the chemo seems to be working.
I can’t put into words what I’m feeling right now. I knew in my heart it was going to be good news, but it’s still just solid to hear. It will make the harder days better knowing that it really is working.
Chemo was actually fun for me today. I enjoyed a celebratory Pepsi and MJ painted my nails. I felt it was well earned 🙂
Technically there is no cure for my cancer. The best that I can hope for is to shrink everything until it all goes away. At that point I will be N.E.D. – No Evidence of Disease. It’s a little frustrating that I can say that “I’m cured” but who knows? I pray every day for those guys in white coats sitting behind a microscope in a lab somewhere. That they will find that cure. That in a year or two I can be “the real deal” cured.
In the mean time I’m going to continue to fight the fight and get over all of this.